06 April 2017

Seeking Treasure: Quiet Time Journal

My son, if you will receive my words
And treasure my commandments within you,

Make your ear attentive to wisdom,
Incline your heart to understanding;

For if you cry for discernment,
Lift your voice for understanding;

If you seek her as silver
And search for her as for hidden treasures;

Then you will discern the fear of the Lord
And discover the knowledge of God. 

~Proverbs 2:1-5



            Use your imagination with me for a moment: You show up to work, and your boss tells you that he has set up a treasure hunt for the morning as a problem-solving exercise of sorts.  He tells you that he has buried one treasure box containing a check for a sizable bonus for each employee and that they are all buried several feet deep in the dirt lot next to your office building.  He even went so far as to mark the spots where he buried the treasures with bright red X’s.  Finding your treasure’s location won’t be a problem.  However, the catch is that you do not have any tools (e.g., a shovel) to dig up your treasure.  So, in your khakis, button-up shirts, and dress shoes, you and your fellow employees kneel down in the dirt and start lodging dirt underneath your fingernails.  How long will it take before you either get bored, give up, or become extremely frustrated? 
           
            Sometimes, we can feel that way about reading our Bibles.  Those of us who believe in Christ know that valuable treasure for life is found within the pages of the Bible, but how often do we feel at a complete loss as to how to reach that treasure?  Some of us stare at this daunting task in bewilderment without the slightest clue of where to begin.  Others have no problem starting, but then give up when the passages don’t seem to makes sense or when the lack of any obvious spiritual progress becomes too frustrating.  Still others skim the surface of the pages consistently and find a few valuable trinkets, but they can’t ever seem to reach the depth where the greatest riches lie.  On a side note, don’t feel bad if any of this describes you.  I only know to write about all these groups because I have been a member of each one of them at various times and still have to guard myself against falling into them again.  These problems arise from a lack of attention (not reading the Bible at all), a lack of comprehension (not understanding what the Bible is really saying), a lack of meditation (not dwelling on the truth of the Bible and letting it  sink in and grip our hearts), or a lack of application (not doing anything with what we have learned in the Bible).

            Many of us know what our specific problem is, and we may also be aware of the root of it, but we still don’t necessarily know how to get past it.  This is where Bible study tools come in handy.  Bible study tools aid in comprehension and meditation – helping us to truly see and appreciate the magnificent and beautiful truths of Scripture, which in turn gives us a greater desire to devote our attention to the Word and points us in the right direction to apply what the Word says.  Personally, one tool that has been invaluable for my quiet times (the times I spend communicating with God through worship, prayer, and reading His Word) is my journal.  I have never been very good at writing random thoughts about a passage on a blank sheet of paper; however, a couple of years ago I came up with a list of specific things to look for and write down from each passage as I read.  I want to share that list, along with some examples, with you all so that you can have something new to try if any of you is feeling like our disgruntled treasure hunters from earlier.  

Here is a sample of the layout of a page in my journal with all the categories:

           
            Passage                                                                                                            Date
           
            Praises/Adoration
           
            Thanksgiving
           
            Struggles/Areas to Grow
           
            Memory Verse
           
            Impactful Verse(s)
           
            Lesson for the Day
           
            Prayer Requests
                        My Husband
                        Myself
                        People in Authority
                        People Needing Salvation/Restoration
                        People in Hard Circumstances
                        People Serving Jesus
                        Youth
           
            Answers to Prayer/Ways God Worked
           
            Things to Remember from Today


            Don’t worry, I don’t suggest writing all of the categories out every single time you make an entry.  You don’t even have to include every category every day if you don’t want to.  On busy days, sometimes I just pick two or three categories to write down.  I have this list written in the front of my journal so that I can reference it and remember what to look for.  I use the color coding system to easily figure out which part of the entry belonged to which category.  Also, I don’t recommend writing in full sentences very often.  Of course, you can if you want to (it’s your journal after all!), but I find that I’m more likely to stick with it if I avoid hand cramps by using primarily individual words and phrases.  Above all, remember to ask God to show you what He wants you to see before you even read the passage.  As you work through the categories, talk to God!  The whole point of the journal entry is to help focus your mind and to help spur conversation with God in your heart.    

Here is a sample of my category page along with some additional notes and explanations:



Passage – Can be as little or as much as you want                                        Date – Don’t skip this!
           
            Praises/Adoration – I usually read through the passage and write down whatever I see about God’s character.  Then, I often stop here to pray and praise Him for what I see about Him.  This would also be a good time to listen to a worship song or two if you want.    
           
            Thanksgiving – Make a list of what you’re thankful for that day (this can go on forever – it’s okay to limit it).  You can narrow it down by writing down only the things that the passage itself makes you thankful for.  The point isn't just to make a list, but to cultivate an attitude of thankfulness.  
           
            Struggles/Areas to Grow – Make another list of your own sin struggles that you’re currently facing or that the passage pointed out in your heart.  Confess those sins to God.
           
            Memory Verse – Choose a verse to memorize, and write the reference here.  I recommend Scripture Typer as one mobile app that can help you memorize Scripture.  Again, you don’t have to come up with a new memory verse every day.  You can write the same one for a whole week if you want.  Customize this to fit what works for you! 
           
            Impactful Verse(s) – Write down the references of the verse or verses that stood out the most to you from the passage. 
           
            Lesson for the Day – Write down what you think the main lesson was that God was teaching you from that passage that day.  Usually, this will come from your “Impactful Verses,” but not always.  This will help you to focus your attention while you read and to think through the message more instead of simply reading to check it off of your to-do  list.    
           
            Prayer Requests – I recommend limiting yourself, especially when you first get started.  Don’t make the list so long that you get overwhelmed trying to make it through.  Just write down about 1-3 names for each category.  Pay attention to who God brings to mind as you are making your list.  Remember, you can make an entirely new list tomorrow!  Then, pray!
                        *My Husband – I have him as his own category because I want to pray for him every day.  You could also do this with your children.   
                        *Myself – List a few specifics.
                        *People in Authority – Choose one or more authority figures – some examples       include: people in your church leadership, government leaders, and school teachers.
                        *People Needing Salvation/Restoration – Choose one ore more unsaved people or people who aren’t walking with Christ. 
                        *People in Hard Circumstances – Choose one or more people who are facing cancer, the loss of a job, the death of a loved one, etc. 
                        *People Serving Jesus – Choose one or more people who serve in ministry – the nursery helpers, a missionary, your local FCA leaders, etc. 
                        *Youth – This one is more specific to me because I serve in youth ministry, but     young people face a lot, they are at a crucial age of learning and forming their beliefs, and they definitely need prayer.  Choose one or more pre-teens or teenagers if you have any in your life. 
           
            Answers to Prayer/Ways God Worked – This can be a sort of memorial to what God has done.  You will be able to look back during dry times and be encouraged that He has been working in your life and that He has answered your prayers. 
           
            Things to Remember from Today – This is more like a typical journal entry.  Write down anything significant about the day that you want to be able to look back on and remember.

Here is an example of an actual entry from my journal (some prayer requests/names have been changed for the protection of the individuals):


Heb. 6                                                                                                 October 6, 2015   
           
            God is just and does not forget the work we do in serving Him.  He cannot lie, His Word is good, He desires His heirs to know the certainty of His promises, and He has given us hope.

*Hope
*Certainty/Assurance
*A crackling candle in a quiet house
*My dogs
*A working husband
*Long-time friends
*Skills I can use for others
*My house
*Healing

*Trust God’s will for children
*Lack of compassion/love
*Bitterness
*Pride

Hebrews 6:19

Hebrews 6:10-12

God sees what I do for Him.  He also sees when I am sluggish.  With faith and patience, I need to continue to serve Him diligently and imitate those who do the same.  It isn’t in vain.

Jon – Discernment, Fulfillment, Confidence in who he is in Christ, Humility, Teachability, Vision, Diligence, Protection
Myself – Joy, Kindness
Authority – Pastor Smith, President Obama
Needy – Joe, Jane, Sally
Hard Circumstances – The Smith Family
Servants – Suzie, The Stevens Family
Youth – Lucy, Billy

Right after God directed me to pray for the Stevens family, I received an e-mail update from them with prayer requests.  Also, Mrs. Stevens is pregnant!

- (I didn't have anything written in this category for this particular day.) 

       If you have any questions or need clarification, feel free to ask!  This system may not work for all of you, but even if it doesn't, I encourage you to find a system that does work!  There are all sorts of Bible study tools available from simple acronyms to more complex methods of study.  If you need some different ideas, let me know.  Don't be content to sit on the surface of Scripture.  God's Word is His letter to us.  It is one of the primary ways that He speaks to us and directs us.  When you are equipped with helpful tools and you learn how to really dig deeply into God's Word with the Holy Spirit as your teacher, you will find that there are unending priceless treasures to discover.    
                

20 March 2017

To Be Known


My Testimony 
Birth

            Twenty-seven years ago, I was born to two hard-working and loving parents who loved and served Jesus.  As I grew, they told me about Him and took me to church, where I heard the same message:

 Romans 3:23 - "For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God."  For as long as I can remember, I knew what sin was and that I was a sinner.  I knew that all sin brought death, that I was not perfect, and as such, I could not enter a perfect heaven with a perfect God.     
                       
John 3:16 - "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life."  I heard again and again the story of how God sent Jesus to die on the cross for my sin, how he was buried, and how he rose again three days later.  I learned quickly that Jesus' blood paid the penalty for my sins and that I could go to heaven if I believed in Him.
                       
Ephesians 2:8, 9 - "For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works, so that no one may boast."  I also learned from verses such as these that trusting in Jesus for salvation on the basis of His death and resurrection was the only way I could be saved.  I knew that going to church, praying, and being good did not save me.
           
 It didn’t take long before He began to stir my young heart, and my mom says that I was saved around the age of three or four.  Of course my understanding was limited, but I honestly don’t remember a time when I didn’t believe in Jesus at all, so I know that I was pretty young when I first believed.  At that point, I was given a new life: I was born again in Christ.  After my physical birth, it took time to develop.  I had to learn how to process sensory information, how to hold my head up, how to crawl, how to walk, and how to communicate.  Just as I had to grow, learn, and develop over time as a child, I’ve also had to learn, grow, and develop in my relationship with Christ.


Baby Steps

In elementary school, I remember having an intense inner drive to obey authority, follow rules, and do what was right.  I didn’t know why, and it drove me nuts.  I didn’t like when some of my peers called me names, hated me, or tried to get me to do things that I knew were wrong.  There were times when I wanted to do what was wrong to fit in, but something inside me made it incredibly hard to do that.  Don’t get me wrong, of course I gave in and did the wrong thing sometimes.  However, I was miserable inside afterwards.  Now I know that the “inner nagging” I was experiencing was partially my personality and my conscience, but primarily it was the Holy Spirit working in my heart.  Since I did not know that fact at the time, and I didn’t read my Bible or pray on my own much, I wasn’t really glorifying God with my life even though I often did what was right.  I was living to stay out of trouble, to keep my parents and other authority figures happy, and to satisfy that relentless inner drive to do what was right.  I also lacked a sense of purpose and meaning.  What was the point of living rightly anyway when it often made me so awkward with my peers?      


Growth Spurts

In middle school, I reached a significant milestone in my relationship with Christ.  During the summer after sixth or seventh grade, I went to Maranatha Bible Camp with one of my best friends.  Prior to attending camp, my friend had been participating in the AWANA program with me and was asking increasing amounts of questions about Christianity.  When we went to camp, God used one of
the lessons to draw her to Himself to trust His Son as Savior and also to open my eyes to having a daily, thriving relationship with Jesus.  Like I said, I was saved when I first believed.  However, at this point, I began to understand more about why I did what I did and why I should spend time with my Lord by reading my Bible and praying.  My faith became more than just going to church on Sunday and knowing that I was escaping Hell because of what Jesus did.  That year at camp, God opened my eyes to my ultimate direction and purpose and life: to glorify Him by getting to know Him, obeying His Word, telling others about Him, and living for Him as He guides me through each stage of life.


Developing Doctrine and Disciplines

            Throughout high school and college, I experienced many valleys and mountaintops in my relationship with Christ.  The darkest valley during that period led to the most incredible season of growth that I have experienced so far.  During my first year at a secular junior college, I rebelliously entered and stayed in an unhealthy relationship that I knew wasn’t God’s will for me.  Among many other significant problems, we had different doctrinal views.  Our main point of contention was whether or not a person could lose his or her salvation.  I had been taught that salvation can never be lost.  He believed otherwise.  As he showed me verses to support his view, I began to question and doubt everything I had been taught concerning eternal security.  I knew there had to be an explanation, but I didn’t know how to find it on my own.  I also grew concerned about the fact that if I were to end up marrying this young man, I would find myself in a very difficult situation when it came to what we would teach our children. 

God graciously  removed me out of that relationship, but I was left severely wounded and full of questions.  That fact, combined with a growing desire within me to get a better foundation in Scripture knowledge so that I could teach my future kids someday, made me ripe for the picking when the Frontier Carolers came to my church and spent some time at my house.  They talked about the intensive Bible training they received at school and about the fact that it was very inexpensive.  It sounded to me like it was close to heaven (little did I know, La Grange is not close to anything).  As I was getting ready to graduate soon from NJC, the opportunity couldn’t have been more perfect.  I was so excited when I found out that I was accepted to Frontier School of the Bible that I read the school’s handbook from front to back multiple times.  I only planned on attending for one year, but that turned into three years as a full-time student and one year as a part-time married student ( they offered a few free credits for spouses of full-time students, and they allowed me to continue taking classes even after I had graduated while my husband finished up his senior year).
FSB Graduation

I learned so much at school, and I cannot fully express how thankful I am for it.  The truth that it is impossible for me to lose my salvation was reinforced, and I learned how to defend that truth in Scripture.  I gained a new understanding of the incredible hope we have as believers who are in Christ.  I learned the freeing truth that the power of sin is broken in my life so that I do not have to constantly fight it anymore; not that I never sin any more, but Galatians 5:16 says, “But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not carry out the desire of the flesh.”  I have a choice.  I could go on and on about all that God taught me through school, but I think one of the most important tools I received from school was how to read and study my Bible in depth.  Before school, I often used the “open your Bible and point” method, which is shallow and unreliable at best and dangerous at worst.  When all else failed I went to Psalms, Proverbs, or James because I knew I could understand those books fairly easily, and I neglected a huge portion of God’s Word.  At school, I learned how to read verses in context – taking into account the verses surrounding a particular verse as well as the historical setting and grammatical factors.  I discovered how correctly-used cross-references can open up a passage like you would not believe.  Not only did the teachers tell us how to do all this, but they demonstrated it for us class after class.  In teaching us how to study on our own, they enabled us to glean from God’s Word vastly more truth than what they could ever fit into a three-year program.  I will be able to use the skills I gained at FSB for the rest of my life as I continue to dig into God’s Word on my own to learn directly from Him.
 
Maturing

            In the years since school, God has continued to teach me several hard lessons.  As I partially described in my series, “A Life Unexpected,” we have gone through many trials in the past few years, and we have also had many sweet moments with God.  Though I sometimes backslide, God is continually molding and shaping me into the woman He created me to be.  I hold fast to the promise in Philippians 1:6 that the One who started the work in me will continue until it is finished.  I am so thankful that He doesn’t give up on me, and I am so thankful that He knows me.  He knows intimately every detail of my story from beginning to end.  One encouraging truth that has been brought to the forefront for me in the past week is that He knows my sorrows.  In the past week, Psalm 56:8 was discussed both during the sermon on Sunday and during the lesson at youth group.  It says, “You keep track of all my sorrows.  You have collected all my tears in your bottle.  You have recorded each one in your book” (NLT).  He knows all that weighs on my heart, and none of the tears I have cried have escaped His notice.  There is a great comfort in truly being known and seen by God.  I am so grateful for the breath He gave me twenty-seven years ago and for the new life He breathed into me just a few short years later.  Knowing Him brings meaning to my story, and I sincerely hope you know Him too.       

06 March 2017

Stability in Shifting Sands


            Bounce houses were never overly appealing to me as a child.  They were okay until  some of the older, bigger kids joined in, and I found myself struggling to stay upright for more than a millisecond.  With a perpetually and dramatically shifting surface underfoot, I would get tossed around, stuck in the side crevices, and then inevitably end up emerging a little motion sick.  Sometimes life feels like a bounce house.  In the midst of ever-shifting circumstances, surroundings, relationships, and feelings, we can come out feeling bruised, leery, guarded, and cynical.  When nothing seems certain or unchanging, we start looking desperately for something steady and reliable to hold on to.  It's as though we are being swiftly carried away by a river, and we desperately need a rock or a branch to grab onto before we drown.  At times, we may think we have found security in something or someone, but eventually it always dissipates like sand through our fingers.  In other moments, we give up and just try to find ways to numb ourselves to the pain, disappointment, and disillusionment. 

We can find true, perfect, and complete stability, security, and peace in only one place, which is described by two of my very favorite verses.  Isaiah 26:3, 4 says,

                        “The steadfast of mind You will keep in perfect peace,
                        Because he trusts in You.
                        Trust in the LORD forever,
                        For in GOD, the LORD, we have an everlasting Rock.”
               
He is our solid ground, our steady hand, and our unchanging Father.  I love how much verse four emphasizes the eternity of God.  The Hebrew word for “LORD” refers to God’s self-existence, and “GOD” is simply a shorter form of that same name.  He always has been, He is, and He always will be.  If you include the word “everlasting,” that makes four times that the writer emphasizes God’s self-existence and eternity in this one verse.  These terms don’t just refer to the span of His existence, but to the steadfastness of His very character.  Unlike we humans who are constantly changing, He didn’t used to be a different person, and He isn’t becoming a different person.  He is.  What a secure and steady Rock He is in whom we can wholly place our trust! 

As we trust in Him and let our minds rest and lean on Him (the KJV, NKJV, and ESV all translate the phrase in verse 3 as those whose minds are “stayed on” You), He keeps us in “perfect peace.”  I have only climbed a rock wall a handful of times, but this concept of leaning and trusting reminds me of the trip back down the wall with a belayer.  I remember having to lean back in my harness and trust both the equipment and the belayer to bring me back to the ground safely.  I had peace because I knew that the equipment was sound and the belayer was experienced.  Though equipment may brake and people may fail, our God never fails, and He offers us a peace to which nothing in this world can even compare.  He is the safe place.  Though life may try to fling us around, we always have this anchor to which we can cling if we would only choose: our everlasting Rock.